"good weed, white wine
i come alive in the night-time
okay, away we go
only thing we have on is the radio"

"hey boy, i really wanna see if you
can go downtown with a girl like me"

--Rihanna ft Drake, 'What's My Name'

"Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. The best thing to do in these circumstances is to wake somebody else up, so that they can feel this way, too."

--Lemony Snicket

Black And White

Black And White, originally uploaded by Ronaldo F Cabuhat.

Tori Amos "Bells for Her"

And through the life force and there goes her friend
On her Nishiki it's out of time
And through the portal they can make amends
Hey would you say whatever we're blanket friends

Can't stop what's coming
Can't stop what is on its way

And through the walls they made their mudpies
I've got your mind I said
She said I've your voice
I said you don't need my voice girl you have your own
But you never thought it was enough of
So they went years and years
Like sisters blanket girls always there through that and this
There's nothing we cannot ever fix I said

Can't stop what's coming
Can't stop what is on its way

Bells and footfalls and soldiers and dolls
Brothers and lovers she and I were
Now she seems to be sand under his shoes
There's nothing I can do

Can't stop what's coming
Can't stop what is on its way

And now I speak to you are you in there
You have her face and her eyes but you are not her
And we go at each other like blankets
Who can't find their thread and they're bare

Can't stop loving you
Can't stop loving
Can't stop what is on its way
And I see it coming
And it's on its way

One of the most beautiful songs ive ever heard...i love it

Anya Marina "Whatever You Like" (cover)

"She'll come back as fire, to burn all the liars,
and leave a blanket of ash on the ground" -Nirvana

"Reading is a discount ticket to everywhere." -Mary Schmich

“Nowhere can man find a quieter or more untroubled retreat than in his own soul.”-Marcus Aurelius

Right now im reading Tori Amos' book, 'Tori Amos : Piece by Piece"

It's fabulous.  And im on Tumblr off and on as well.

And i got to have a seriously awesome night with my best friend.

Tonight is a good night.

Just found this on Tumblr...& i love it.:)  Reminds me of Bob Dylan a little bit....

"Our generation has had no great war, no great depression.  Our war is spiritual.  Our depression is our lives." --->Chuck Palahniuk

So come along, it wont be long
'Til we return happy
Shut your eyes, there are no lies
In this world we call sleep
Let's desert this day of work
Tomorrow we'll be free

California Dreaming

my sleepy, nighttime, poem.


while i lounge down, cigarette smoking hound
drooling out his light, and i pet him with delight
as i raise my lemonade glass, while wearing a sassy bikini /dress
i lay down on the patio chair, wild rose blooms flow through my hair
smell sweet flowery California in the back of a home,  now 'nowhere'
my grandparents gave love, they were always full of care
and my brother and i devoured it, while my uncles poured on some more of it
we bathed in our love, like sunshine on flowers,
we bathed in the backyard pool, splashed on eachother, on noodles, for hours
we ran away from the hornets, and we played cricket on the grass
then we ate from Grandma's Moo-Cow cookie jar,
and i did cartwheels in the air
but now they are in the air
so these memories are in my mind
but i will see them again someday
someday...much forward in time

Saturday, May 8th 2010

--Got my wisdom teeth out last Tuesday
--have basically been in the house every day since.
--dont have dry sockets, but my jawsies are PRETTYYYY sore.
--have my art history final on monday.
--luckily, i dont have to work tomorrow.[because of teef.]
--trying to study....

--here's my 'Numerology' report from...Friday i think?

Happy? Content? Or merely pretending? Be honest.

 If you're happy, expect an honor or reward from your past creative efforts.

If you're pretending, use this realization to embark on a new path to get there. You create your own happiness. Think about it!

Ambien

sometimes i take ambien.
and tonight . i did. dot dot dot
but yesss its my prescription medication so this isnt illegal or any of that janx.
Ambien is supposed to help people with sleep.
So im trying it, its in my system now.
ok here we go::

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ahah ok: i just spent like 30 minutres reading 3 pages out loud of this book i'm currently reading, called "The Rise of the Creative Class"(and if immaking voices..im doing them on purpose. to make people laugh. haha. nottt seriously.)

Ill post it later today. Night yall

Fairy Name

Found this fabulous site:
Called 'Fairy Name Generator'

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mine is:

Your fairy is called Yarrow Rainbowglitter

She is a fortune bringer.

She lives close to vixen and badger sets.

She is only seen in the light of a shooting star.

She dresses in black and white like a badger. She has multicoloured wings like a butterfly.

Get your free fairy name here!

Favorite Children's Poems Pt. 1

Picked up an old book of mine[well, originally my grandfather's book, from his childhood. hes now deceased, but still means a LOT to me. :) ]
and it's called Poems and is from the Junior Classics - The Youngfolks Shelf of Books
-->and found a few very cute poems i thought i would share.
--> this book is Copyrighted back from 1912. :)

Poems:
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-->Weather Song:
When the weather is wet,
We must not fret.
When the weather is cold,
We must not scold.
When the weather is warm,
We must not storm--
Be thankful together,
Whatever the weather.


-->
There is very little trouble
That happens use to-day,
It's the sorrow of to-morrow
That drives our joys away.

We sometimes sit and wonder
And stew and fume and fret
For fear something may happen,
But it hasnt happened yet.

-->
Hearts, like doors, will open with ease
To very, very little keys,
And don't forget that two of these
Are, "I thank you," and "If you please!"



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Wrong baby wrong - lyrics & song/video

wrong baby wrong baby wrong
it aint the end of the world
dont you worry, pretty girl.

cause now that he's gone,
baby gone baby gone
you got NOTHING to lose
count the minutes if you want to.
it wont be long
baby long baby long
until you find -- somebody new
come on now
everyone falls down -- everyone crawls now and then
then they get up again.
you can cry if you want to -- thats what we all do
 but if you think you'll never move on, you're already...

cry baby cry baby cry
go on and let it all out.
i aint leaving you now.
and we can fly, baby fly,
lets share a bottle of wine -- and we can laugh about the good times
&& you'll know why
baby why baby why;
its gonna be alright

come on now
everyone falls down -- everyone crawls now and then
then they get up again.
you can cry if you want to
but if you think you'll never move on, you're already wrong.

no you aint wrong
baby wrong baby wrong
-->there's nothing wrong with moving on
when you know he's good and gone.

come on now

everyone falls down -- everyone crawls now and then
then they get up again.
you can cry if you want to
--thats what we ALL do.
but if you think you'll never move on
you're already wrong.
wrong baby wrong baby wrong.

An Education

Finally finished City of Bones a couple of nights ago....
last night had fun bbq with Jess & the Coleman Fam
--then we watched Precious(finally saw it...!)
then i came home and watched An Education.
--I really liked Precious, but for some reason i really LOVED An Education.
--Now i'm reading City of Ashes...and trying to study for my ArtHistory final in a couple of weeks.<3

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David:  Do you go to concerts?

Jenny:  No.  We don't believe in concerts.

David:  Oh, I assure you, they're real.

Jenny:  If people die the moment that they graduate, then surely its the things we do beforehand that count.

Jenny:  I dont want to lose my virginity to a piece of fruit.

Jenny:  If you never do anything, then you never become anyone.

Jenny:  It's funny though isn't it?

All that poetry and all those songs, about something that lasts no time at all.

Jenny:  It's not enough to educate us anymore Ms Walters. 

Youve got to tell us why youre doing it.

Fun Weekend

Had a really fun day today.:)
Went to Borders with Tori--[we also hungout last night//saw the Last Song together...which turned out to be a fun movie to watch.  I'm not the biggest Miley Cyrus fan in the world...to put it nicely...but she did a pretty decent job in this movie...and the male-lead was very good. and cute.]
--after movie, we got slurpees, and chilled at her house for awhile. she tried to get me to buy the Iron Man 2 Cup for my slurpee[im  a hugeee robert downey jr AND iron man fan.]
--...i think i reacted by saying something like 'are you kidding me? do you KNOW how many calories would fit in this thing?' hahah.
--they were delish. and it was so fun just hanging out//talking at her house--so so nice to get out of mine...and to just have nice, sober, relaxed time together.
[even though im ALWAYS sober when i see her...but ive been kind of scooting away from the 'party' scene lately...im just not real into that right now. not interested in drinking much lately.]
--today--> at Borders, was fun.  She bought the Purpose Driven Life[just started reading it about a week ago for a group which my ex's mother made for me, and she is leading it...and Tori is going to be coming too! woohooo!! :) ]
--Borders was fun.  The girl behind counter, when i was ordering my vanilla-coffee javakula[so delicious..] asked for my name, and then said, 'OH Holly!! I remember you!! You used to come here all the time'  -- i was all, 'Uhhh you remember me? Haha yeah, i did.  I havent been in here in soo long..a few months i think...i really need to start coming back here again.' and she goes, 'Yeah, you really should.'
^^This was so nice..and unexpected!! Especially since I didn't remember her at all, but i did love the reddish tint to her hair.
--Anyways, had a great time just cheeling//drinking mah coffee, talking with Tori. So so fun...making jokes about imagining two giant angels standing in back of each of us, i said hers was blue and mine was pink. hahah.
--we decided that during group, we'd draw ninja drawings of her saving me from my ex, and attacking him with a niinja sword in my honor, because the book says a tthe very beginning that you should do the program with a Partner.
--i told her how about a week ago, while i read this intro part about writing your Partner's name down on the front page as well as yours, i thought to myself , 'BUT what if you just broke up with your BOYFRIEND?? do you not have a partner anymore??!' --and slowly turned the page.  hahaha.
^I cant believe i actually thought that to myself. 
--So we're new 'partners', and i have now deemed us as ninja-sword-throwing partners as well. 
--Then we read the part about how we need a 3rd partner, &  rope has 3 sections tied in, then we thought...well our leader is our 3rd partner?
Then Tori read my mind and said,' No, JESUS.'
i said,' YES. Jesus. youre right.'
then we both looked to the empty chair-at the side of our table.
HAHAHA. i love her. i could keep writing about our inside-jokes all night.
ANYWAYS--this is beyond the point...
--i made my dad watch New Moon with me tonight.  He liked it..like how he liked Twilight.  He's still holding out for the action-packed-Eclipse which comes out in June, though.
(director is same director who did 30 Days of Night with Josh Hartnett. I liked that movie.)
--now im really craving to re-read Eclipse...and finish City of Bones, so i can let Tor borrow it.  [so excited..got City of Ashes in mail the other day.  Along with Dr Wayne Dyer's The Power of Intention.  <--mastin kipp from the Daily Love has recommended this book over and over/how it completely changed his life.]
--Then i forced my dad to watch 'Twilight in Forks' , because i rented it a few days ago and its due back Monday.
--Then I started writing down a ton of names which I really like...i'll put those in a seperate post, or else this will be WAY WAY TOO long.
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April 4th Some Inspiration

Needed a little boost while trying to study for my Art History exam tomorrow..
[having an extremely hard time forcing myself to study something im not naturally very good at memorizing!!/all the ancient greek statues & architectures]

--"They thought the victory had taken place on the field that day in the public eye. But I knew it happened months before in the privacy of my own head, when I decided to face my fears, to stop holding back, to brace myself for one supreme effort.  Beating Air Force was a much easier challenge than overcoming myself.  Private victories always come before public victories.  As the saying goes, "We have met the enemy and he is us." --Sean Covey, The 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teens

ps...happy easter!

April 03, 2010

Thinking about doing this....

Rotaract Fundraiser for the American Cancer Society with Sensazao Crew

coming Sunday, April 11 from 2:30-4:30 p.m.

 Join us for a 2 hour dance fitness class full of hot moves and crazy tunes...

all for a good cause!

All proceeds go to American Cancer Society

 in fighting today's aggressive disease of cancer.

Ticket Price: $10 - pre-event or $15 - at the door.

Please buy ticket ahead of time since space are limited!

Email ne-z@juno.com or can go to student information desk at Annandale campus.

Check Facebook invite at http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=109361012416207.

and also thinking about how good the music from the Clash of the Titans trailer is...seeing it tonight...even though it got 3 1/4 stars out of 4 on movie tickets.com --

still wanna see it.

Have a good nighttt

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a City of Bones kinda day.

--art history -- such a hard class NOT to procrastinate for (meaning, procrastinating is way too easy for this class.)
--last night i ended up reading City of Bones by Cassandra Clare
for atleast 3 hours...?  Was up til about 5 am??
It's worth it.  The storyline is SO fun.
And there are SO many fun sci-fi-ish details added in, about the Shadowhunters (Jace Wayland, Alec and Isabelle Lightwood) & Clary(& her best friend Simon) who's mother is kidnapped -- & Jace and his clan of Shadowhunters help find her mother//figure out Clary's background story//help her get to the truth of who she is.
--she realizes shes actually a Shadowhunter by blood as well(they fight all of the Downworlders; like demons, vampires, werewolves, faeries, etc etc)
--its SOOO fun to read.  And I love that Jace sounds delicious, and his character is hilarious.  His humor sort of reminds me of EdwardCullen from Twilight...but even funnier.  Sometimes.
--Clary is a great main character, because shes vivacious, and even though she's not PHYSICALLY strong, emotionally her strength stands out considerably in this book.
--I love that Isabelle has a golden whip that she uses to kill things.

--a favorite quote so far:: 

[Isabelle] "I forgot that's what gets you all hot and bothered Jace,

girls killing things." [Jace] "I like anyone killing things," he said equably.  "Especially me."

[p. 337]

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ahhhh.  so now i really really need to study for Art History,

since I have an exam on Tuesday of this upcoming week;

and i still barely know my crap.

--I'm also reading a book called 'Scouting the Divine' by Margaret Feinberg

+ I am really enjoying it so far.

+One quoted review for her so far is:

"Feinberg is a gifted storyteller and spiritual teacher.  She has a knack for leading us to an 'aha' insight or a reflective 'hmmm.'" -- The Dallas Morning News

^^Couldnt have worded it better myself.

Ok have a good day everyone. :)

I'll probably be back on here later this afternoon.<3

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ps::here are some actors i think//and some other fans think as well//would fit the Mortal Instruments Series roles VERY well::

--Jace:: Alex Pettyfer

Kyle Schmid

--Clary:: [im kind of undecided...]

possibilities - Emma Roberts

Emma Stone

--Isabelle:: Summer Glau

[[all pictures from http://www.fanpop.com/]]

jason mraz - 'please dont tell her' lyrics

Jason Mraz - 'Please Dont Tell Her'
[i loveee this song, and these lyrics.
its about time i posted them.]
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I hear she's kicking ass across the board and rock two hundred thousand higher scorer

Just in time to save the world of being taken over
She's a warrior
I couldn't play again because the game it never ended it never even landed on the can
And never let me in to spend my quarter
There's no love for me no more
Say it isn't so
How she easily come, and she easy go
Please don't tell her that I've been meaning to miss her
Because I don't
She was the girl with the broadest shoulders
But she would die before I crawled over them
She is taller than I am
She knew I wouldn't mind the view there
Or the altitude with a mouth full of air
She let me down the doubt came out until the now became later

Say that it isn't so
How she easily come, how she easy go
Please don't tell her that
'Cause she don't really need to know

That I'm crazy like the rest of us
And I'm crazier when I'm next to her

So why after the all of everything that came and went
I care enough to still be singing of the bitter end and broken eras
I told you I don't but
I am only trying to be the best with my intent to cure
The rest is sure to lay me ease the plural hurts of the words of reverse psychology
That's easier said
Easier than done

Please don't dare tell her what I've become
Please don't mention all the attention I have drawn
Please don't bother cause she'll feel guilty when I'm gone

Because I'm crazy like the rest of us
But I'm crazier when I'm next to her
And it's amazing how she's so self-assured
But I know she'd hate me if she knew my words
Do I hurt anymore
Do I hurt, well
I don't
I don't
I don't
[thank you to http://www.azlyrics.com/ for the lyrics!]

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other songs im listening to [tonight]::

 -'trickster' by radiohead

 -'how to fight loneliness' by wilco

 -'and then i kissed him' by hans zimmer [pearl harbor soundtrack.]
-'barely listening' by pilot speed
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The Daily Love

I love The Daily Love.
I get The Daily Love emails full of wonderfully uplifting quotes..for free.. every day.:)
They're created by Mastin Kipp, and i SOMEHOW/randomly found out about him and his lovely creation through a celebrity's Twitter account
(i think it was Amanda Bynes?)
Anywho;;
he does send out the bestttt quotes.
always uplifting//positive.
if you go to http://www.thedailylove.com/ -->and you subscribe to his emails,
then you can get great quote-filled emails every day, too! ;)
here are some of my fav's from today's email::

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"Insist on yourself.  Never imitate."  --Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Exert your talents, and distinguish yourself, and distinguish yourself, and don't think of retiring from the world, until the world will be sorry that you retire." --Samuel Johnson

Today's Affirmation: I am who I am -- that is THAT!

[^all from TheDailyLove^]

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[[milla jovovich -- love 'er :) ]]

'The Edge of Never' - Kye Peterson

-->ok its 5:21 am here in northern virginia, and i just finished watching a film//documentary called 'The Edge of Never'
-->this movie..is .. amazing.  Kye Petersen's story, if you dont have any clue who he is go ahead and do a wikipedia search or something of that sort because im way too tired to type it all out, but hes just 100% amazingly inspirational. 
-->BASICALLY -story-in a nutshell-::
--His pops was legendary in skiing(big mountain skiing.) -- shinin' in the 80's and early 90's--but VERY very sadly, passed away on February 26, 1996--while skiing Chamonix France
[[which is supposedly known as the Death Sport Capital of the World]] :/
&& an avalanche caught Trevor[Kye's dad.]
-->Almost a decade later, Kye traveled[at age 15!!!] to Chamonix with a group of some of the greatest ski-mountainers in the world---and little Kye, rides the same run
that caused his father's life to end.
- - - - -I mean...yeah.  That in itself, is indescribable. Umm...- - - -
from the very beginning of the film, youre totally absorbed//drawn in by the great filming /cinematography/ -->especially when you are put right in a scene where someone is riding, tumbles, and is at the brink of death//flying away on a rope hanging out of a helicopter.  It's bone chilling--then you see the rest of the movie.
--I should probably get a dictionary out right now to start properly describing how much i sincerely enjoyed this movie.  I mean jeese, my MOM made me watch it,
and my MOM isnt very much like me//we have VERY FEW similar interests.
and she said she loved it so much, shes watched it like 3 times in the past week. So weird..my mom liking extreme-sports-documentaries...
-- anyways, so i'm up at 5:34am now, writing about this movie, because its just absolutely fantastic.
It felt SO short too.  Kye Petersen is just so completely and totally inspirational...i mean just hearing his story is insane, but then seeing this adorable 15 year old kid, talking and joking and man he was just like freaking sunshine.  I literally kept turning to my mom going, 'HE IS SO ADORABLE. HE IS SOSOSSO ADORABLE.' hahah. this is not usually a phrase i use to describe anyone/anything but ferrets and my dogs.
But anyways---he is adorable. or *was. because the*BEST part of the movie,
is no, not when he completes his trip, LIVES after finishing the run which had killed his father..NO this is NOT the best part.
the BEST PART--is when they surprise you at the very very end, and show you
*Kye at age 17*. weeooeoeoeoeoeoooooooooowwwwwww--he is so cute.
but now...hes not 'i want to give him tons of hugz!' cute--
now he's:: 'oh my lawd i wish i was dating this gorgeous boy' ,cute.
AND THEN: you realize, "ooh..we're both 19 years of age. yummy!"
and then so cute that you think..OK I HAVE to search him on google now.
then you see he has a wordpress blog.
then you watch more of his videos..then you fall MORE in love with him.
hahaah, jokes, jokes..but im not really joking at all.
if i could go on a date with him tomorrrrrowwwwwwwww---
would i? [such a tough decision....]
ok anyways im way too tired , making stupid jokes, story of my life.
Go watch this movie, or read the book.
Night loves<3

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wowwwzasss!! ^just found a pic from about 2 years ago(i was 17) when i had crazy-bright-bleached-blonde-hair!! hahah.
and a nice tan. ;)
man have things changed...
<3

My Favorite Quotes - 'The Royal Tenenbaums'

Finally watched this movie for the first time the other night!!

((while sleeping over at the Colemans, the night before we walked in the National Walk for Epilepsy 2010 in D.C. for Team New Hope--aka we were walking for adorable ms. Mackenzie Coleman!

probably the most beautiful&&inspirational child i have and ever will see in my life. anywho;;))

here are some of my fav quotes from the mov-ayyyyy <3  ::

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Royal:  What characters? There's a bunch of little kids dressed up in animal costumes.

Young Margot Tenenbaum: Good night, everyone.

Royal:  Well, sweetie, don't get mad at me. That's just one man's opinion.

Eli: I'm very sorry, Margot.

Margot: It's okay. We're not actually related anyway.
Eli: True.

Richie: I think he's very lonely. Lonelier than he lets on. Maybe lonelier than he even realizes.

Ethel: Have you spoken to him about this?
Richie: Briefly. And he agreed that...
Chas: I'm sorry, maybe I'm a little confused here. What are you suggesting?
Richie: That he come here and stay in my room.
Chas: Are you out of your mind?
Richie: No. I'm not. Anyway I think he'd be much more comfortable here than at...
Chas: Who gives a shit?
Richie: I do.
Chas: You poor sucker. You poor, washed up papa's boy.
 
Richie: I have to tell you something...

Margot: What is it?
Richie: I love you.
Margot: I love you, too.

Margot: Do you send my mother your clippings and your grades from college?

Eli: Please stop belittling me.

[the priest breaks his ankle and is being loaded into the ambulance]

Raleigh: Do you have an alternate?
Priest: No.
Raleigh: Are there priests on call?

Eli: Why would a reviewer make the point of saying someone's *not* a genius? Do you especially think I'm *not* a genius? You didn't even have to think about it, did you?


Royal: Anybody interested in grabbing a couple of burgers and hittin' the cemetery?

*Eli: [reading part of his newest novel at a press conference] The crickets and the rust-beetles scuttled among the nettles of the sage thicket. "Vámonos, amigos," he whispered, and threw the busted leather flintcraw over the loose weave of the saddlecock. And they rode on in the friscalating dusklight.

Richie: Did you say you were on Mescaline?  
Eli: I did indeed. Very much so.

[Chas Tenenbaum and his sons enter his mother's house with several bags]

Etheline Tenenbaum: Chas? What's going on?
Chas: We got locked out of our apartment.
Etheline Tenenbaum: Well, did you call a locksmith?
Chas: Uh huh.
Etheline Tenenbaum: Well, I don't understand. Did you pack your bags BEFORE you got locked out?



[Royal motions to Pagoda]
Royal: He saved my life, you know. Thirty years ago. I was knifed at a bazaar in Calcutta, and he carried me to the hospital on his back.
Ari: Who stabbed you?
[Royal motions to Pagoda again]
Royal: He did. There was a price on my head, and he was a hired assassin. Stuck me in the gut with a shiv.
[Royal tells his children of his impending divorce]

 Richie: Is it because of us?
Royal: Well, of course, certain sacrifices had to be made as a result of having children. But heavens, no.

Sassy Kevin(my brotha.)

NEVER TRY TO STUDY FOR AN EXAM WHICH YOU HAVE TO TAKE THE NEXT DAY,
WHILE TRYING TO WATCH (THE EX-PLAYMATE--KENDRA FROM THE GIRLS NEXT DOOR)
HER NEW SHOW!!
AHHAWE;TAWKJETWLKTEJ
so distracting..
so now im upstairs on my laptop, trying to download my vocab word list for my exam tomorrow in Art History,
which i should have been studying//preparing for the past two months for, but have i been?
NOPE! procrastinate much? YES!
its so beyond procrastination...
if there was a word to describe procrastination at its worst,
just 23059230952390 worse,
this would be it.
ok anyways, as i turned on my computer,
my picasa app. was up on my desktop,
and i saw this old picture of my brother, haha that i took back when i was about 15,
when he was sitting on my bed(15 years old--example: the happy bunny sticker on the wall behind him.)
ok i need to go try to study now!!

 

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ps:: just found out i have this entire week to take exam(until April 5th.)
yeshhhhhh. makes me feel so much betterrrr.<3
good night everyone

Bella(my pooch!)

 

this is my bella.

Favorite Childhood Cartoons

Ohhh I miss this show.  And this opening song..SO MUCH!!<3
Jem: [i loved how her band was Jem & The Holograms, and how the competitor-band was the Misfits..and that the Misfits main girl was named Stormer. and had green hair.]


This was another favorite of mine..Spider Woman! :)
'Dedicated to fighting evil, while
weaving her WEB OF JUSTICE..'
i mean really now? what opening-line gets better than that?

Breakup Song - TLC 'Scrubs'

Ok just woke up and it just turned 3:00pm! kudos to meeee!!

What I do: I getall anxious at night, (from breakup still, still filing out some other relationships attached to that one, getting anxious about those before doing anything about them etcetc, basically being  a GIRL.)

, then i dont do things that i actually want to do like read

(which...i have so so so many books around my bed to do so...)

but i'm actually currently reading::

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  Dr Wayne Dyer's 10 Secrets for Success and Inner Peace
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  City of Bones by Cassandra Clare [Steph. Meyer approves ;) ]

HAHA ok ijust turned 'Scrubs' on by TLC -- and that just made me feel so so much better.

ok this is where i put 'Scrubs' lyrics.::

TLC LYRICS

"No Scrubs Remix" - TLC - [[thank you songmeanings.net]]

A scrub is a guy that thinks he's fly
And is also known as a buster (busta, busta...)
Always talkin' about what he wants
And just sits on his broke ass
So (no)
I don't want your number (no)
I don't want to give you mine and (no)
I don't want to meet you nowhere (no)
I don't want none of your time and (no)

I don't want no scrub
A scrub is a guy that can't get no love from me
Hanging out the passenger side
Of his best friend's ride
Trying to holler at me
I don't want no scrub
A scrub is a guy that can't get no love from me
Hanging out the passenger side
Of his best friend's ride
Trying to holler at me
-- There's a scrub checkin' me -- But his game is kinda weak --
And I know that he cannot approach me
Cuz I'm lookin' like class and he's lookin' like trash
Can't get wit' no deadbeat a**
So (no) (yea, yea)
I don't want your number (no)
I don't want to give you mine and (no)
I don't want to meet you nowhere (no)
I don't want none of your time (no)
If you don't have a car and you're walking
Oh yes son I'm talking to you
If you live at home wit' your momma
Oh yes son I'm talking to you
*If you have a shorty that you don't show love

Oh yes son I'm talking to you (yea yea yea yea...)

Wanna get with me with no money
Oh no I don't want no (oh)
No scrub (no scrub, no love)
No scrub (no no) (no scrub, no love)
No scrub (no no no no no)
No scrub (no no)
No
[Left Eye:]
See, if you can't spatially expand my horizon
Then that leaves you in a class with scrubs never risin'
I don't find it surprisin'
If you don't have the g's
To please me and bounce from here to the coast of overseas
So, let me give you somethin' to think about
Inundate your mind with intentions to turn you out
Can't forget the focus on the picture in front of me
You as clear as DVD on digital TV screen
Satisfy my appetite with something spectacular
Check your vernacular
And then I get back to ya
With diamond like precision
Insatiable is what I envision
Can't detect acquisition
From your friend's expedition
Mr. Big Willy if you really wanna know
Ask Chilli, could I be a silly ho
Not really, T-Boz and all my senoritas
Is steppin' on your Filas
But you don't hear me though

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'One Man Wolfpack'

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Eisley 'Brightly Wound'

A Marie Antoinette [happens to be one of my all-time favorite films.] video-spin
on Eisley's 'Brightly Wound' song. :)
Enjoy!!  [Will Post lyrics underneath ze video.]
*puss puss*
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it's happening all the time
when i open my eyes
i'm still taken by surprise
hold sunlight and swallow fireflies
and it makes me want to c.r.y.
           I .  love  .  you.
           I shall never grow up
           Make believe is much too fun
           Can we go far away to the humming meadow?
we were walking there
and i had tangles in my hair
but you make me feel so pretty
you have shiny eyes
yes like those forest lights
and it makes me want to cry
           i love you
          i shall never grow up
          make believe is much too fun
          can we go far away to the humming meadow?
i love you.
i shall never grow up
make believe is much too fun
can we go far away to the humming meadow?

this place is so  ~l o v e l y ~
it kind of makes me very happy
let's go far away to the humming meadow
                         to the humming meadow...
to the humming meadow.

'Telescope Eyes' by Eisley Lyrics

---Trying to go to sleep..&& i keep thinking about two seperate people, and then God.
hrmmm!! interesante....((if i knew any other languages besides english and spanish id list 'interesting' in those ____<---here as well...))
--ive been reading Dr Wayne Dyer's "10 Secrets for Success & Inner Peace"
[im almost done now, and it has helped me a lot through natural-life changes as of recently..i'll post some of my fav. quotes up here soon.]
--a big boost today has been that since i accidentally found a 'Library Challenge' blog (which i cant remember link right at this moment, will post this as soon as i find it.) so every time i see one of many VERY-interesting-looking-books lying around my bed; wether they are from library on loan, fresh-sent and totally mine and very used from SwapTree.com[my favorite website of all time. besides this one of course. ;] and LetterstoTwilight hahaha.]
 i think of the LibraryChallenge[i think that i joined the 50 book-for 1 year challenge? now im hoping i did 100 because it sounds way better...and i think the deadline is by next January 1st--aka--2011.]
--was also listening to my OLD-ipod(i think my first, actually!! from when i was thirteen years old.  on April 27th, it will have been 6 whole years since then.) even though ihave a feeling i probably got this ipod when i was 12...oh well...
--'Telescope Eyes' by Eisley just came on, and i used to adore them, but hadnt listened to them in several years really.  And ESPECIALLY had never truly listened to the lyrics..these girls are no dummies.  I like their dry/sarcastic/humor which perfectly depicts the messed up values and judgements that run so rampantly through society these days.(And always have, actually.)

Here's a video [with song.], and i'll list the lyrics below it. Enjoy.:)

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oh, you humor me today
calling me out to play
with your telescope eyes, metal teeth
i can't be seen with you, you see...
--Please don't make me cry.
--Please don't make me cry.
--I'm just like you, I know you know
--I'm just like you, so leave me alone.
I wonder why you can't see
you're just not near enough like me
with your telescope eyes, metal teeth
i can't be seen with you
--please don't make me cry
--please don't make me cry
--i'm just like you, i know you know
--i'm just like you, so leave me alone.
(x2)

Oh...you humor me today.
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'Liar' by Mumford & Sons

'Imagine Whirled Peace'

This just made me laugh very much so inside;;
[thank youuu to Alex MacRae. :) ;)]

Breakup

I broke up with my boyfriend the other day.
Two days ago , actually.
I needed to know...i needed to know how it is to be on my own again.
I didnt want to feel like i needed to depend on someone again..
especially someone who i cant depend on.
Someone who, last week, told me...'i hate it when you DEPEND on me'
when all i asked him ws if we were still going to Bonnaroo concert together,
he said he didnt want to because his best friend couldnt,
so i said i was still goign to go with a different girl-friend,
he then said 'NO NO ILL TAKE YOU.'
i said 'nooim going with her.'
'NO NO IM TAKING YOU'
me: 'it hurts me that you know how much i want Bonnaroo, you did too, but then you invited all your friends, one cant go, now you cancel...and now im left stuck alone. So now i needed someone to go with, drive all the way to..(the 8 hours or so it takes to get there.) and THEN you say you'll take me.'(meaning he never really cared that i wanted to go in the first plce, he just cared tht HE wanted to go, and that he didnt want to without his bff. ugh.) and thi skind of thing happens on a daily basis..with everything.
so once i said that to him ^ he goes 'I HATE IT WHEN YOU DEPEND ON ME.'
that out of everything, everything hes done to me this year, much more traumatic nd soul crushing situatious where people begged me to break up wit him becuse he was truly killing me, and killing me deeply and hard and it was terrible..this line, stilll really hurt.
because ive trained my self for an entire year and a half, to not depend on him.
but at the same time, stopped hnging out with ll my friends for him, stopped everything in my life really for him. rearranged everything i wanted to do on my own or with family or with friends so that he would be apart of it, and a lot of times ruined these things.
and he still said 'i hate it when you depend on me!'
happy st patricks day to you, bustah.
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part of me feels bad bout blogging about him, because if he read this, he would again, blame me like he used to do with everything i never did. but now he has a reason to hate me. i broke up with him. and now im venting. im such a horrible person right?
<3
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check out this video below: beautifull.<3



-->[[Lyrics]]
And it starts


Sometime around midnight

Or at least that's when

You lose yourself

For a minute or two


As you stand

Under the bar lights

And the band plays some song

About forgetting yourself for a while

And the piano's this melancholy soundcheck

To her smile

And that white dress she's wearing

You haven't seen her

For a while

But you know

That she's watching

She's laughing, she's turning

She's holding her tonic like a crux

The room suddenly spinning

She walks up and asks how you are

So you can smell her perfume

You can see her lying naked in your arms



And so there's a change

In your emotions

And all of these memories come rushing

Like feral waves to your mind

Of the curl of your bodies

Like two perfect circles entwined

And you feel hopeless, and homeless

And lost in the haze

Of the wine


And she leaves

With someone you don't know

But she makes sure you saw her

She looks right at you and bolts

As she walks out the door

Your blood boiling

Your stomach in ropes

And when your friends say, "What is it?"

You look like you've seen a ghost

And you walk

Under the streetlights

And you're too drunk to notice

That everyone is staring at you

And you so care what you look like

The world is falling

Around you
You just have to see her

You just have to see her

You just have to see her

You just have to see her

You just have to see her

And you know that she'll break you

In two

Go read 'Letters to Rob' ---

Letters to Twilight & Letters to Rob (both blogs.) are absolutely amazing.
im not just saying this because im 100% unconditionally and eternally in love with the twilight series, the twilight movies, AND every actor in the twilight cast.
this is because they are freaking hilarious(the writers of these two blogs.)
and i love them so much--> and have i even met either of them in person?
NOPE! so if you are a twi-fan, go read their stuff..NOWNOWNWOWNOWNOW.
<3
 and im doing this out of straight passion and love for their work.
and now, them, ofcourse.

here's a one of their most recent posts(link to the post.)
which includes a picture of an Alpaca & Jacob Black(Taylor Lautner)
Enjoy!!

http://networkedblogs.com/p29939249

^---more on this(picture below.) in above link!! 

& here are a couple other pictures that ijust happen to love, so im going to include it in this post too. :) Enjoy.